(K) to nothing this past night's work. The feeling of helplessness, to realize that they can not do more of what you are doing, in that moment where you realize it can not do and that maybe (just terrible to think) that maybe it's better that way. Looking through the eyes colleague, with your gaze to the doctor ... go ahead because you can not give up, we hope until the end. But the end comes, after all life slips away. Then stop. Look at the time. Strangely, you can not stand up and start doing. Hot water, cotton wool, with a kind gesture and pay attention to the latest treatments. You take it in her arms, speaking in spite of everything, wrap it in and laid him nell'icubatrice SHEET. Take a step back and stay there. Hoping not to collapse. Why can not you fall in front of dad. He needs your strength not to lose her. He has already spoken to the doctor who explained what was done. At the end turn and a small voice says "thanks for everything" and leaves. And there collapses. I collapse. (K) then nothing! Start to make because you need to do. There are other babies to care. We think after a collapse. Now we must go forward. The final round ends, slowly come home trying to stay focused on the road. 52 km are a lot every time but this morning I just unbearable. Enter now at home, the alarm points at 1545 and slept on the double-roomed apartment, without even taking off the shoes. You just want to sleep. The alarm sounds, something in your stomach, go get Wren to kindergarten, laugh, jokes, aspects Cub bus stop, take them around to get the material to build the lanterns, lanterns made while preparing dinner. Make them dinner, a box squatting on the sofa, good night. And finally, the tears come. (K) NOTHING.
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